For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

- Matthew 6:14-15

I don't think i've ever been so angry but a weight has been lifted.

Bx

chandeliers of hope

i haven't posted again in a while, because i've had a pretty hectic few weeks.

end of term stuff like house christmas, christmas socials, carol concerts, surprise birthday parties and a ton of deadlines, just meant there's been a lot going on that comes well before "hey, fox"

...but OH well.

recently?

- bowls came to stay for an amaaazing little weekend.

hotel visit(s) and lots of alcohol and throwing people across the bar and smashing glasses and a very strange crowd at the office work doo. lovely, lovely!

- met an accountant to take my mind off my failed romance with a "busy" man in law recruitment. i do love a man in a high-paying job ;)

aaand i'm finally home for christmas.

i dont even care that i have loads of work to do/no ones back yet/i have no money in the world/i have to work shifts. I'M HOME. the last time i've been home for longer than about 4 days was in easter.

i am SO ready to just enjoy a break from leeds.

aaand thats it.

hurry up home leicester girls. and hurry up new years eve!

loveee Bx

sitting in the libes at 8pm.

sounds impressive but i've only been in uni since half 6 and i'm only really here for dinner and then found myself in here on the promise of the pub in a bit.

i'm a well good student NAAAAAT.

it's alright though, cos i do graphics.

thankyoubye Bx

"messed you about."

it would save a lot of hurt if all men just said "i don''t want to be in a relationship" the moment they met me. but oh no, please feel free to string me along for weeks or months, let feelings develop then dump me off. all of you...

i'm hurting tonight. not so much because of that silly work-a-holic "man."

more because it just keeps happening, i feel like my whole life is just a string of let downs

and also to be honest, i'm finding it difficult living away from friends. i need to stop pretending that i'm fine with it, because its lonely. its lonely at times like this when i don't want strangers to see me upset, but i could do with someone to have a laugh with to take my mind of my stupid stupid crappy life.

how many days 'til xmas please? i need a break.

Bx

i'm getting quite used to this whole being let down thing.

keeps happening.

please feel free to just not give a shit, thaaaaaaanks.

Bx

completely welled up watching this advert for the first time last night.

John Lewis advertisements are literally my favourite, so so beautifully done.

that is my dream job right there.

...not much else to report. i have had literally no money, so no life.

also nobodies about this weekend in leeds so its been really lonely, but hey, i'm used to that right?

oh and i got ridiculously upset on wednesday at a few old friends being incredibly rude and mean. so no matter how much i've genuinely been praying that you'll grow up and at least speak to me. i've finally thrown our friendship away like you have. and its ashame that clearly other friends feel like they're involved and can't talk to me either.

heres to hopefully a better week next week.

Bx

P.S we went to see "in time" this week. so good, such a good little concept of a film. justin timberlake was obviously an absolute babe, but amanda seifreid (sp?) completely stole it with her amazing legs. i want her body please.

tell me you love me, come back and haunt me.

i have no money

loads of work to do

a horrible cold

and nothing to look forward to.

i hate to moan,

but come on life, throw something good my way please?

...is it too early to start counting down to nye?

oh yeaaaah newcastle!

(they should probably start bracing themselves now.)

Bx

(P.S this coldplay song is still one of my favourite songs, ever. amazing.)

a seven nation army couldn't hold me back.

blah blah blah, its been another whole week or so, whoops blah.

i've been so so busy with uni work!

i got set a really interesting new advertising brief on friday, which after a really wet fireworks night and sleepover at kings, then a breakfast with chloe on saturday, i got straight to work on! i've done loads of research and i really want to get it spot on so i have a chance of standing out in front of the elmwood guys.

erm what else has been kicking off?

i had such a good night on wednesday! took the new boy out on the town with the girls haha after a lovely meal and a few cocktails first. really nice to spend a bit more time together, although starting to worry he doesn't really have much time. hmm we'll see.

thursday was nice to chill and watch tv and have breakfast too. slightly had to cancel my dissertation meeting with my tutor...cough, i won't tell if you won't.

then its just been nights chilling and working really. not much outrageous to discuss.

erm, i'm currently having a look at potential xmas gifts... i'm really considering a jack wills gilet, thoughts?

i love the clothes i just get that theres stick that comes with the brand hmm...

ok, thats it for now Bx

"You is kind. You is smart. You is important."

woah majorly PMS'ing on that last post, completely worked myself out of that little meltdown!

i'm back to the usual love of leeds again.

erm this week i've watched my pretend housemates walk across fire

then had a spontaneous and very drunken night out to tiger tiger... it's rude not to on a tues.

and on weds went to the cinema to see "the help" and really loved it. the stories really moving and a lot of it made me realise how badly the racism was back in america in those years, but it had quite a few laughs in it too and the actresses were all well good!

then on friday after a non-stop manic day at uni - literally smashed 8 and a half hours (with only half an hour break) of feedback sessions. ridiculously exhausted but went for quiet drinks at the pub and obviously ended up heavily drinking until 2 o clock in the morning and really twisting my ankle. standaaaard.

then this weekend has been lovely too, just a chilled out lunch with king tits, then a cheeky pop back to hers for apple pie and custard until the early evening! then tonight im popping round to my real leeds home to watch xfactor with the gang.

all in all, not a bad week at all! not half as bad as whatever i was going on about in my last post!

excited for wednesday next week and to get going on a new design brief, such an nerd.

Bx

P.S watching james corden last night made me completely fall in love with him, although i was already falling the minute i read his piece in glamour magazine this week. check out this quote:

"Going through heartache? Remember tonight when you lay your head down on your pillow, that someone, somewhere is laying their head down on their pillow too, and that person is going to see things in you that the last guy never did. They are going to love you and you will love them more than you ever dreamt possible. And you'll be glad of the experience you're going through now, because it will have made you wiser, stronger and ultimately happier. We are all just one tiny moment away from happiness - and, like the guy in the cafe I have a feeling it could be just around the corner."

Oh my word, what an absolute babe.

feeling like shit.

having a bit of a mid-term crisis or meltdown and i'm in a really funny mood.

i think things don't really stay good for very long for me

and its not very fair. and yet i'm also freaking out for absolutely nothing.

oh and i'm really seriously toying with the idea of giving up drinking. i'm starting to really not enjoy what it does to me, i don't turn into a person i'm very proud of or happy about being.

it's just difficult when it also brings on the best moments of my life too.

wahhh, im going to the cinema to drown all this out with a different story.

goodbye and goodnight. Bx

la la laaa

oh, hiiii.

just taking a quick breather from doing some uni work in my dining room at home in leicester to do a quick post :)

i've been at home since saturday and getting myself ready this evening to get back on the rails to leeds. it's actually been a lovely little break. i came back on saturday morning, very hungover after a late night of drinking with my new date. more on that in a bit ;) ...then as soon as i arrived david dragged me to an open day at dmu, which should have made me angry but i was genuinely chuffed he'd asked me to go, cos its tradition isn't it! anyway, then i went home showered and slept and then my bb's came over for some predrinks, xfactor and a typically very drunken bb night out in leicester.

we hit a few cheeky bar, lots of wine and drinks then got a very drunk cctv taxi across to o2 for a cheeky bit of dancing :) then ate a completely awful amount of chicken in maryland haha. standaaaard bb night! love you girls ♥

then sunday and today i've just chilled really! enjoyed home cooking, caught up on loads of tv and squeezed in a tiny bit of work.

excited to get back to leeds again now tho. the course is still really stressing me out with the amount of work i've got on, but i'm loving my fashion editorial project and i'm quite motivated to get going on my dissertation this week too.

oh and my lovely new date. he doesn't read this (yet. hahaa) but things are going really well. very early days and i'm fully jinxing it, but hopefully i'll see him again this week. we've had a few nights out on call lane with lots of wine and a lovely night in watching shit films and eating chinese and i'm genuinely excited about it all. fingers crossed things might finally work out good :)

Bx

"lights will guide you home"

i need a massive holiday,

but nah this dissertations a fair trade. i enjoy reading about curatorship... not.

on the other hand i'm loving life in leeds still

its all a bit confusing and chaotic at the moment, but isn't that what leeds has always been about?

more than excited to see my bb girls on saturday.

i miss you pair! and we have so much to discuss! <3 ...and then get hammered and wait until bowlers stacked it before we come home ;)

tomorrow i have such a busy day! i am art directing and shooting my first ever fashion editorial photoshoot. i'm really excited about it! it's gonna be quite a different direction im taking, but i think thats just because im completely obsessed with LOVE magazine these days. but yeah and then i have a few meetings and then kingtits 21st birthday night.

interesting...

bye now :) Bx

"you found out ive got a crush on you"

oops another good week or so since i've blogged. sorry!

i've been so so busy with work! genuinely third year is so much work and pressure and stress, which sounds awful, but i'm really enjoying getting stuck in this year. and i guess it's a lot easier to be motivated to work without all my coursemates around me, but i do miss them all so so much.

i had such a lovely catch up with geneva last week and saw sasha briefly on friday which was great to see them both because i had been feeling so down about everything that's happened and whether people would just never see me again because of going back this year. but they told me some really interesting things and i'm so much happier about it and sad for my behaviour last year. it's almost like i finally have an explanation what this should have taught me and finally it's like i can learn and move on from it.

erm i've had a couple of great nights out. i met up with hannah from my internship work on friday night for cocktails and we had such a funny night and met some great people, particularly a very enthusiastic 30 year old glaswegian! and it was great to get the low down on the company. it definitely was the right decision completely to leave when i did. and my boss has been in contact with a positive response about the reference, so thats finally a load off my mind too.

this week has been a bit quieter on the evenings front. chlo came over for a girly sleepover and a cookery class on monday night. we donated blood during the day, so i very very almost fainted whilst cooking in the evening (although maybe that was just being so overwhelmed at actually cooking?!) haha, but yeah it was great to donate again. people that don't do it for no real reason, really should. it saves lives and honestly doesn't hurt for longer than a split of a second.

and then the rest of this week has been spent working on my many projects. not really sure what the weekend has lined up for me, but hopefully i'll find something fun to do. although i do need to do a lot of reading for my dissertation...

probably gonna go get on with my day now.

loveees. Bx

let the sunshine

the weather this week has been amaaazing.

literally a whole week of heatwave and solid sun

theres been pretty much days of sunbathing, pimms and lazing around enjoying it.

it's been perfect, i'm so happy at the moment (bit worried that saying that too much will jinx it!)

this week theres also been a few laaavley nights out.

tiger on tuesday for cats bday was so good to be back out with the law lot all together having a laugh and too much vodka, standaaard.

then thursday i didn't mean to go out because i had "school" the next day but ended up staying out til 4 and clubbing it up in wire. whoooops!

then last night i braved vodka revs and call lane for emily's bday, but a lack of food and sleep meant i wasn't feeling so up for drinks and dancing so i left after a few cheeky cocktails for a actual well long sleep.

uni was been good this week too. ok, so i've only been in for a few hours, but this year looks like its going to be really intense and full on which is good because that's what i'm really looking for. i want to get well stuck in this year and prove what i'm made of in terms of becoming a designer.

i also found a few people to talk to and met a few new people, which is great because i was really nervous about being completely out on my own this year.

anyway. i'm absolutely sweating from walking about on errands in the sun today, so i'm off to chill down and start on some research for my projects.

thank you, goodbye :)

Bx

i don't know where you come from, but you're everywhere i go

having the most happy times back in leeds.

i'm fully loving being back in leeds again, which I know must mean i rely on my amazing friends to be happy, but i don't care. being back with everyone is the nicest feeling.

i'm going to fully enjoy this year, as it's the last one we may all have together, but lets not think about it at all.

this little end to freshers has been sweeeet.

otley run check. night out with my 103 girls check. night out with lots of vodka and dancing check.

also have had the most lovely days chilling, catching up, drinking and a loveeely day trip to the countryside.

perfect. very happy today, and hoping it continues :)

buh bye

Bx

P.S if my bosses are reading. which they very definitely aren't. ANSWERMYEMAIL. dicks.

norfolk

just back from a lovely weekend away to my parent's new caravan in norfolk with my mum and my gran. such a nice few days get-away with the 3 generations of lady buchanans!

i spent most of the 3 days reading novels

wandering around royal gaff's

and walking along windy and rainy beaches

and absolutely loved not being in leeds or leicester (no offence!)

i needed just a breather to get away from everything and i even forgot my charger so literally got a bit cut off from the outside world, which actually turned out to be quite frustrating.

now that i'm back its been a kick straight back into the real world.

what has happened to one of my best friends over the weekend is terrifying and horrific and a reminder that you can't stop evil things happening.

i'm so angry i wasn't able to be contacted over the weekend bowls, but if your reading, i'm really glad it wasn't worse :) loveyouuu!

and now this week i have lots of catch ups planned. reaaally excited to see chloe on weds, it's been far to long since we've seen each other and i'm sure we'll spend hours chatting absolute nonsense! and then straight up to leeds on thursday to celebrate the end of freshers, but for me it will be the end of the worst summer of my life and a start of final year with everyone back that i love!

i'm excited for the next few weeks, i've got a feeling good things will come :)

here's hoping.

Bx

P.S student finance, i've your reading. wire me my loan now pleaseeeee.

rest in peace.

god bless all of those who tragically lost their lives in the awful terrorist attacks across America on this day, ten years ago.

i've been thinking a lot for those and their family and friends today.

may they find the strength to get through today

and may such evil attacks and horror end soon.

i've been completely tearing up at the memorial live feeds, but now i'm off to church.

it's hard today, i'm struggling to understand how this could be allowed to happen.

i hope i find answers.

Bx

"We just had a near-life experience, fellas."

evening sir.

this week has felt quite nice. a couple of the girls in my new flat have moved back in and whilst we haven't all been spending every spare moment with each, its been nice to occasionally bump into them and have a chat and the flat has a different feel about it now. rather than the complete nightmare of the past month or so.

the other night i watched fight club with shabana. so good!

not gonna lie, i wasn't expecting to enjoy it, i was expecting full on hours of violence, but i found the storyline was reaaally inspiring.

as you know, i'm a sucker for a quote and my fave ones were:

"Fuck off with your sofa units and strine green stripe patterns, I say never be complete, I say stop being perfect, I say let... lets evolve, let the chips fall where they may."

and... "Only after disaster can we be resurrected."

brad pitt looks HOT in it too, like actual fit.

also this week i have finished my sisters keeper... absolutely bawling! such a good book though, i recommend it - it's different to the story of the film, i think if i'd have seen the film after the book, thinking back i would be disappointed, i think i prefer the book now.

and i've immediately set upon another jodie picoult novel, securing my new status as complete book nerd. seriously, people need to come back to leeds. immediately... and i spent a fiver i dont really have on the new issue of vogue, just because adele looks properly amazing on it! i haven't even read it yet, i've just looked at her pictures, in a wow what an icon, not lezza way.

finally, this time next week i will be at home, packing for a trip to the english sea-side.

this is the second most excited i've been all summer. i genuinely cant actual wait for get on that sodding wet rainy beach and get the fuck away from everything.

yayayayayay.

still really really missing everybody but looking forward to resuming hopeful normality before this summer started, very very soon.

lots of love,

Bx

you need me, i don't need you.

"they say i'm up and coming like

i'm fucking in an elevator"

you need me, i don't need you

-ed sheeran.

TUNE.

Bx

... not that I don't need all the absolute babes in my life. i love you all ♥

"But never doubt that I love."

This weekend has been so lonely!

But not really in a sad way, i've kept myself busy and had lovely texts and messages from people to cheer me up. I'm trying to see it as the calm before the storm anyway, because people are starting to come back to Leeds and I have a few trips lined up for my week off in a couple of weeks, so it's nice I guess to just chill and spend some time relaxing on my own.

Yesterday I went and bought My Sisters Keeper in Waterstones and sat in Starbucks for an inappropriate amount of time just reading and reading. There were times, i'm not gonna lie where I genuinely forgot I was still sat in a cafe. Then I took myself to the Leeds city gallery. I've been dying to see the Damien Hirst stuff for quite a while, so it was great to get a chance to see it. I'm really interested in his pharmacy work, as working in a pharmacy for over 3 weeks made me often wonder about the parallels in art and medicine.

Surprisingly, it was the older artwork that I completely fell in love with though. My absolute favourite was Leon Richet's "Moretz Sleeping Place." The scale of such a lovely painting and then the intriguing depth and general calmness of it was amazing. God, i'm such an art nerd.

Anyway I then came home, made myself a curry and bawled at the X factor and laughed away at Adele, before completely falling asleep ridiculously early for a Saturday night.

Today, I have sat with a coffee and carried on reading My Sisters Keeper for hours. I'm glued! It's so sad, but so beautifully written. My favourite quote so far is:

"Shooting stars are not stars at all. They're just rocks that enter the atmosphere and catch fire under friction. What we wish on when we see one, is only a trail of debris."

I sat and thought about these few sentences for aages. No wonder it takes me ages to read a book. However, i'm over half way through which is well impressive for me!

Anyway, now i'm off to go and pick up my laundry then make an early tea before church.

Laters bitches,

Bx

"I'm not lonely, I'm alone."

Hey.

Thought i better do a quick bloggo post seeing as i'm meant to be bringing it back.

I've had a completely lovely couple of weeks.

I've caught up with the most amazing friends, been to Nottingham on a cheeky 21st, had Sumner and Bowls visit me for a whirlwind few days midweek and had a surprise visit from an old "well what would you call him, rebecca?" flatmate-ish back in Kirbs.

All in all, it has slightly cured me of my boredom of life and its depressing stuff from over the past few months. Well its helped take my mind off it for five minutes at least.

I think i'm fully ready to just smash out next year at uni now and get my degree with the amazing people I still have around me and just kick off my next adventure. (Italy is already becoming an obsession. If I am not in Rome this time next year, I have no idea what i'll do.)

Anyway, also this weekend I went to see the amazingly romantic and yet horribly sad "One Day." Absolutely heartbreaking and so realistic. Waaah, I want a romance like in the films please. Although without the sad bits. Even in the car home I was still sniffling, god.

Also I rewatched (500) Days of Summer and The Duchess. I'm turning into a mess for films again. Thats what being a right loner does to you, friends need to come back immediately!

And this weekend I am spending it completely on my own for the first time well, in around 2 months I think. I genuinely can't remember the last time. I've been so so lucky this summer to always have friends visiting or friends to visit or a home to go back to and to escape. Even the most gorgeous lovely weddings with tons of family around me. But this weekend, even though it is a best mates birthday, money problems mean I can't go anywhere.

So i've decided I'm going to take the bus into town on Saturday and buy a cheap novel and sit in the corner of Starbucks all morning. Then i'm going to find the nicest cafe in Leeds and treat myself to lunch. Then in the afternoon I am going to finally visit Leeds Art Gallery (i am such an awful design student, I still havent been in over 2 years!) and just enjoy being by myself and not think about things too much.

Then on Sunday, sod it all. I'm having the biggest lie in you can even imagine. Then I'm sitting around in my pjamas all day, watching even more depressing or romantic films. Then i'll probably go to St Georges in the evening and get some of that amazing faith back.

So thats a cheeky update.

I don't think anyone even reads anymore though. I'm a bit done with it myself. It's funny to read back on though, so maybe in a few months time I'll read this back and think paaaah.

Anyway, buh bye...

Bx

You're not gonna' like me, i'm nothing like before.

Woah!

Such a sad amount of time since i've posted on here. Let's be honest though, i'm never gonna completely give up on this thing!

I use this blog to look back on things and (judging by the last post...paaa) sometimes my posts are a bit sad and not great things, most of the time i write on here so i remember all the amazing things that have gone on throughout the year! So, understandably, i've not wanted to write on here for a very long time.

It sounds horribly depressing, but not much has gone well for me over the past 3 months. I've honestly changed for it. I'm not gonna' write loads about it, because I don't think i'll ever really forget it or need reminding. But i've learnt a lot of really tough lessons from all the stress of lots of different things that have happened and that's what I need to take from it. My mum literally gave me the best advice she's ever given me throughout, she told me "Rebecca you have to look out for only yourself. People don't care like you do, they'll let you down."

So, it sounds absolutely awful, but now I look out for only me. Because for the first time ever, i've learnt you really can't trust any other single person to look out for you.

Anyway, i really didn't want to post much about that. So we'll move on to happier things. I think before I last posted I hadn't even found a placement? Well after literally countless applications and emails and a few interviews, I finally got myself a design internship job in a small business in Leeds.

I'm still there and yet i'm going back to university, because quite honestly, i'm completely done with Leeds. It's like i'm done with it and I just want the next stage of my life to come now, i'm ready to get a degree and then get a job I really love in a new city and experience new things.

I've also decided over the past week what i'm going to do after graduation. I've not told anyone yet, it's pretty fresh this ;) haha, but i'm gonna go away for a few months and travel and explore around Italy. It's a country i've been dying to go to for years and theres really so many places I want to visit, I think I could easily spend weeks there just seeing it all and developing some design knowledge and photography whilst i'm out there.

So i've finally got something really set in my mind that i'm looking forward to. I think it's important to have that at the moment, it'll help with motivation massively. It's also gonna take a lot of saving too, but I can handle it.

Over the year i'm gonna just work my bloody arse off for this degree, prove to everyone that it's not a cop out not doing a specific industry year ...and then get the hell out of here.

But for now, i'm gonna bring hey, fox back haha ;) so watch this space

Looooove,

Bx

Get out of my fucking life.

Apologies now, because I have had a drink or two.
But I've stopped myself from going out because I have an important interview 2moro. Massively proud that I stopped myself!!

Anyway...
Today I had plans and got massively bailed on. Its like my whole year has gone full circle. The start of second year I got massively upset and fucked over and again he thinks he can treat me with the same shit.

No you fucking moron.
I hope I never hear from you again.
Whatever excuse you have, bite me, all I wanted was one last catch up before I potentially leave for over a year and never see you again.

Fuck you, best of luck with your life but never attempt to make plans again. Your done.

Such ashame because I considered you such a good friend before all of this.
Thank you, goodnight.
Bx

P.S I love all of my true, true friends from leeds I'm leaving behind next year. I'm in tears because of you guys, your the ones actually worth getting worked up about.
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St. G

I went to st. georges this evening for what seemed like the first time in aaaages, it'd been like months!

And I feel like I had so many of my questions answered :) I know most people think church is lame or think its ridiculous and say negative things about it... but honestly, I would encourage so many people to find faith, because it's amazing.

A lot of my worrying has seemed to get a lot better and I honestly feel like there's a path set out for me. I shouldn't worry so much about placements and losing friends. I don't even need a perfect guy that I keep searching for either, it'll happen when it's meant to and things will work out.

Cheese post today. Sorry, just feeling the faith lurrrve today!

Amen hahaa ;) I'm excited for a final blast of revision 2moro, then tuesdays the big day. My official last day of second year. Time has completely flown by, its ridiculous!

Bx
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Night night,

Oooh writing a blog post on the bb in bed. I feel like on "Run's house" on MTV when he always sums up the show on his phone (or something?!) how his days been and what's been going on. Paha, I'm not an 80's rapper in a whirlpool mansion bath tho.

Another successful and really productive day of revision completed, and another few interesting potential london placement job leads.

On the other hand, another bit of banter about how shit my course and therefore how shit my choice of career is and how "shit" my whole future life will be (I don't mind, but hello.. that's my life we're mocking daily now.) and also another day of not being able to go out or really spend time having fun and a laugh with people.

Not whinging, but I am a bit bored / frustated. Wah, enough.

Also, that other stupid stuff, Im still being ridiculous. This needs to stop, I am definitely being so so stupid.

Tommorows a new day and hopefully a clearer, fresher head,
Night, loveyouu
Bx
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"you do right by me, I'll show you a life most suckers can't even dream of."

i went to see water for elephants last night at the cinemaaaaa with chlo

so good to do something other than revision or sitting around the house pretending to revise!

it's such a lovely film, the story was beautiful

and a few years ago i would never dream of going to a film with robert pattinson in it, cos he's gross in twilight, and a bit shit in them

but remember me was really good, so i thought i'd give him a go in this

he was HOT. so, so lovely. yum.

the romance in it all is so lovely. i would quite like to swept off my feet and fall in love with a lovely gentleman please.

i've just re-read this and there is a gross overuse of the word lovely. ooooh well.

back to revision, yesss.

Bx

Emailed?!

Just worked out how to email a blog post to my blog from my blackberry..whaaaay, this should be amaaaazing. I'll probably be posting a lot more pointless shit from now haha but now it'll be like as it happens! Cutting edge bbe, I'm well modern!!



Currently lying in bed.

Revision plan and day's worth of notes waiting for me, yesssss.

I'm living the dream baby ;)



Probs gonna make myself a cheeky bit of breakfast first, sausages and beans need eating up...what can you do?! ...nobody cares, shutup.



Also the big distancing needs to start today. Its getting stupid now. I'm very sorry for how rude I may become.



Bx





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dancing on my own

not really loving much at the moment.

obviously i'm loving being back in leeds and seeing everyone, but i can't help feeling like these are the last few weeks ever with most of these people.

...as if i'll ever manage to stay as close to these amazing friends i've made, not even knowing myself where-abouts i'll be next year.

and most of my closest friends here, it feels like i've known for yeears. its so sad and i'm struggling a bit getting my head around it.

not gonna' lie, i'm majorly holding back the tears already. i'm so jealous of everyone coming back and doing third year together next year.

then obviously my course is majorly getting to me too. i absolutely love it, i love design and it's what I want to be doing, but the job prospects are awful and i'm shit compared to all the people i'm competing with to get these stupid placements.

the fact that i can't even interest people with offering companies to work for free, doesn't sound too great for my future career. fantastic.

2 rejections. heaps of ignored emails. tons of time wasted searching for internships. it's ridiculous.

hating it.

it's not even as if summer will be good. apart from this bb holiday, which i am SO excited for (it's about the only good thing going at the moment!) then everyone's gonna be off away from leicester. and with the prospect of not having a student loan next year, i probably won't have much money to much apart from sit at home with the rents.

gaaaah. i'm gonna go revise. fuck this.

Bx

bright lights, bigger city

i've:

> fallen back in love with london

> not been doing any of my uni work for end of term and exams

> been and had a very cool interview for a top music label company

> been chilling in my garden getting a nice sunburn

> had my haircut a horrible length waaah, but nice colour

> been working loads of shifts

> still havent got any money

> chilled with my leicester besties/got drunk with them

and that is all.

i've been having a well good time recently, cheers baaaabes :)

now i'm off to watch david tennant and jack o'connell in "united."

someone has to do it i suppose, just to check if they're looking alright ... ;)

gonna' do my blog up a bit tommorow, my 3000 word essay can probably wait.

Bx

nah. i've already had enough.

and this is only my easter break, i'm not even back for summer yet.

last summer i had a laugh and it was nice and everything but i didn't really make the most of it.

this summer, i'm going travelling.

i don't care that i have no money, i'm going on loads of little holidays

i'm dragging my amazing friends to amazing places

and we're gonna live it up completely.

come with me babe.

i'm not stopping in leicester, it's dull here.

Bx

waaaaaaaah

i very nearly deleted this blog in a moment of complete madness the other day.

ive lost track of it, and been completely shit with it. waaaaaaah i'm sorry!

im considering starting a new one

and being proper serious about it and doing like design and fashion and film and culture stuff on it. 'cos secretly i'd well love to be like a nice serious successful blogger, but we'll see how it goes. gonna' keep it on the sly for now and see if i can push it without telling people :)

but my lyffffff is a bit rubbish on other parts at the moment.

i had a major stressful finish to the end of last term and literally left wanting to get out of leeds asap! i had a horrible major damp problem in my room which got me so down and upset at a time i really needed my own space to do work and escape. then i had major issues with a few housemates being absolutely ridiculous and then there was absolute stress with deadline overload and constantly trying to find a placement and worrying non-stop about where i'll be and who i'll still see next year.

but now im back home im not really feeling any better.

none of my friends are back here yet. and its horrible going from constantly being around friends like 24hrs of the day, to not being with anyone. the family are obviously lovely though. i do love them. and i love being back in a clean house. my mum nags and bitches at me far less than i get from a certain individual back in leeds so its absolutely lavleyyy ;) pahaha back off.

and i'm working which is always really refreshing to be back helping people. but theres village things that have been getting me a bit upset yesterday which i won't really go into on here, its not my business to spread. but it did really hit me harder than i thought things like that could. i could barely sleep last night.

but things arent all glooooomy. i've been kicking back a bit and chilling out since the stress of all the past few weeks. and todays been lovely weather! :)

and i had a job interview the other week in an agency i completely fell in love with. it was such an amazing place and i think going to it made me suddenly realise, design is what i want to do. i want to work in a creative team like that, but even though the interview went reaaaally well, a lot of amazing coursemates applied for it, so i'm not too hopeful. it's just nice to get that dream back into focus.

and on the boy front. things are ok. :) i'm coping. but i'm finding myself getting so stupidly close to the way i felt last summer. and i can't do that to myself again. i can't keep setting myself up with all these stupid feelings to be let down. i can't wait for a guy again. no matter how much i want to.

so anyway ive written my essay's worth now. i've loads of time on my hands at the moment so i will try and keep it more updated. but i'm off to hit the treadmill now. it's definitely time i toned up for our girls holiday. i'm so excited for it ♥

loveyou

Bx

it's been a ridiculous amount of time since i posted on here.

i've got a bit of bloggers block.

all i'll say for now is:

1. i have fallen madly back in love lee mead.

2. life in leeds is still absolutely outstanding ♥

and 3. i think stupidly, i let myself get carried away again.

i know, i know...

improvements in blogging needed.

(also needed: money, job for next year, 2011/2012 living arrangements, a flatter stomach, a healthier diet and a lovely boyf)

thankyaaaa, goodnight.

Bx

happy valentines day.

fuck you romance.

i hate you.

Bx

P.S i'd rather get absolutely paralletic, dancing to old soul and rhythm and blues tracks anyway.

keep your romantic dates, i'll be dancing off all this valentine depression on one of my favourite club nights of the year. haa!

...not that i'm bothered.

quotes

Heyyy,

this week i've had a lot of work on.

and a few nights out with the usual lovelies, blaaaaah blaaaaaah.

feeling a bit lazy recapping it all to be honest, but i've had a laugh :)

anway i've gotten into a habit of noting down interesting and inspiring quotes into my blackberry. i've got quite a list from this week, so i might make it a regular thing to post up on m'bloggg?

♥ here they are:

"To deny our impulses is to deny the very thing that makes us human." -The Matrix

"Ignore that doubting voice that tells you that you can't and enjoy the adventure." -Elle Magazine

"The first duty in life is to be as artificial as possible. What the second duty is no one yet has discovered." -Oscar Wilde

"Youth is easily deceived because it is quick to hope." - Aristotle

"It had never occurred to me that our lives, which had been so closely interwoven, could unravel with such speed. If I'd known, maybe I'd have kept tighter hold of them and not let unseen tides pull us apart." -Never Let me Go

It's valentines day tommorow.

I'm spending yet another year alone, you don't understand how sick this makes me feel.

Not that i'm unhappy. I'm probably the happiest i've been in months. Thank you. ;)

Bx

rumour has it he's the one i'm leaving you for

hiiiiiiiii, just a quick one before i get in the shower and start my day.

last week was a pretty quiet week.

i spent most of it in bed with a horrible horrible cold, but it was quite nice to chill down and lay low for a bit. i definitely needed it after my solid week of nights out the week before.

then on friday i finally went out. we hit fruity with the 28 gang, for dan's birthday :)

i don't have much memory of it after playing centurion with frosty jack's but i think i had a good night! i'm not normally a fruity fan, but im pretty sure we had a few good laughs!

then on saturday i went to see "hereafter" with chlo.

its that new matt daaaaaaaaaaeeeeeemon film...i liked it, the storyline was quite unusual and interesting, i just found it all a bit slow moving and it didn't really hold my interest much through bits of it. but yeah it was alright! the tsunami scene was difficult to watch, it must have been absolutely horrifying to witness that.

anyway, afterwards we went to the pub to meet some of the 62 lovelys and cat and steph. had a really good laugh and more wine than i intended too then went home :)

overall, a laaaavely weekend.

oh and i went to st. georges on sunday with tash to a gospel according to coldplay night.

completely fell back in love with coldplays music and its so good to realise some of their songs link a lot to faith.

anywaaay, today i'm going into uni to present my research boards, then coming back and getting right on it for a big return to tigertiger tuesdays! YES. so excited, bring it onnnn! its been tooooo long.

i'll update yers later.

loveeeeee

Bx

"our fingerprints don't fade from the lives we touch."

-remember me.

a lovely romantic little postsecret.

Bx

LET'S DANCE!!

eurghh, im currently sitting dying in bed from awful otley run induced flu!

but i cannot complain at all. i have had theeee best week and my birthday otley run on saturday night was incredible :)

so i've been out monday night, wednesday, thursday and saturday. (drank in the house instead on friday)

its been a week of absolute alcohol death, but so so fun!

monday night we tried to go to warehouse, but instead..pretty much failed after drinking too much in 62 pre-drinks and ended up in an absolute mess with toast and in chlo's vommy bed.

"I SET AN ALARM." hahaha

wednesday night i went for pre-drinks at jess's house with the 28 gang. :)

really good predrinks there, love the banter!

then we went to o2, which was actually really good! i'd only been there once before, which was an absolute disaster of a night, so i was a bit skeptical, but we stayed right til the end and had a right laugh! (and drama!)

then thursday i went to rebel bingo. had some course-mates pre-drinks round 62 first which was good...although i'm such a rubbish host!

then we hit rebel bingo for a couple of hours, CHODEY CHIN.

we got a bit bored watching the actual bingo tho' so jibbed it and went to tequila at mezz at a ridiculous 10.30. it was completely empty of course.

but we eventually had a good little dance, and loaaadssss of tequila and sambuca shots!

then paddy, ross and kasper came back for some after-drinks and banttterrr. (til 5am?!)

hahaa

then friday david and the lads came up, and bowler and laura from sheffield, so we had a "dance rehearsel" to celebrate with 62 and paddy, jess and kasper. the whole quiet few turned into heavy drinking in the house..vomming in the sink, pressure shotting vodka, plenty of drinking games and general mess! a very funny night tho...

"tinkerbell tits."

"DOOR SLAM."

"SAUFDFSDSAGES. THEYRE NOT IN THE FRIDGE?!!!?!?!!"

hahaha.

then saturday was the huggeee otley run! i'd been excited about it since like december, so it literally felt more exciting than xmas. everyone looked absolutely amazing in their outfits and i loved the card and the cheeeeky presents the house bought for me ;) hahaa!

we made it from woodies to about the library and the eldon... although i was nearly killed along the way stupidly playing CHICKEN after downing far too much wine!

so many laughs with everyone

it was sooo good to be together with everyone, i genuinely love you all!

i'm gutted the rest of the leicester lot couldn't come though :( next time guys!

after a pizza and a failed attempt at getting into propaganda the 4 left standing hit walkabout, although i was faaaar to drunk to appreciate it, so we eventually called it a night.

one huge water fight in the house, an eletrucution on the kitchen light switch and a bit of hide and seek later, i passed out in sarah's bed.

then woke up at 7...realized tom still had david downstairs playing zombie killers or whatever (they carried on until 10am. you messes!!)

and finally went back to bed for half an hour.

suuuuch a good week!!

d'aww i don't half love leeds.

i'm so happy here :)

Bx

i hoped you'd see my face and be reminded

adele's on the radio.

yet again i'm welling up.

i think "someone like you's" a bit too well written.

she says it perfectly.

but i am back in leeds.

and ready for an amazing week of mad nights out with my favourite people.

YES! lets be havinnnn yer.

Bx

rebecca buchanan, 20.

happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to meeeeeeeee...
happy birthday to me. ♥

thankyaaaa, for all the lovely, funny and entertaining birthday messages today.
i was overwhelmed with how many messages i got on my facebook wall,
and loved getting lots of lovely bbms and texts off people too, especially from people i don't catch up with much anymore :)
i love you all.
i spent the day with my family, but having all your messages was really lovely.

to receive over 60 messages and not a single one from you though, you should be ashamed.
you really are as rude as everyone says.

aaaanyway. fully excited to get right back up to leeds 2moro.
i have at least 4 nights planned, hellooooo refreshers week! (including our huuuge otley run! YES!)
and it'll be the first time our house is alllll back under one roof after the xmas break
so let the good times and banter commence :)

(might throw in a little bit of uni work and lectures along the way too?)

20's feeling good.
i have had a lovely day thanks. Bx

never mind, i'll find someone like you...

Wow, its been a good few weeks since i last posted, gossssh sorry, but ive got a few hours to kill and ive just polished off a cheeky glass of vino, so i'll fill you in now!

Things have been hectic, but absolutely amazingly good these past few weeks.

I took a trip back up to leeds a few weeks earlier than pre-planned so that i could get some solid revision done for my exams.
I managed to do a lot of this...even spent quite a few days just racking up hours in the library (whaaaat?!) but i also managed to squeeze in plenty of pub lunches, an otely run a few (very) messy nights and a few casual afternoon or evening pub drinks with the housieees! pahaha!!
...what can i say i'm easily distracted.

it has been sooo so good to see everyone again though,
i do love everyone in leeds, such good banter and laughs :)
and it all feels much better now, i was in a bit of a horrible mardy phase last term, but all that seems to have magically gone. excellent! :)

But this week after my exam and a verrrry eventful travelling session (taxi driver drove off with my case...) i hit sheffield for a few days to visit Bowler for a few nights out for her bday and to see the rest of the lovely sheff gang.
We had some hilarious nights out (Bowler not being able to stand and tied up to about 4 balloons was well entertaining to watch) and had some lovely days too just chilling out or monging around having a bit of cheeky banter and cake/coffee :)
Can't actually wait for you to come to leeds for my otley run next weekend, its gonna be immenseeeee!!

Anyway now im back home in leicester for the weekend, to chill out after those mad few weeks, cool down a bit and celebrate my birthday at home with the family.
...it's tommorow. and i'm half excited and half absolutely poooooing myself at the fact that im going to be twenty. errrr hello?! i barely act like a responsible 14 year old...
but as they say... "you're not 19 forever, pull yourself together" and i definitely have these past few weeks. i'm completely keeping to the new years resolution and attitude this year.
this year is all about f-ing it all and just having fun. who gives a shit about how we're meant to feel, it screws us over, upsets us, and is a complete waste of these young, free and completely amaaaaazing years.
So (very cringey, but what isn't on this blog?!) but sod off to my teens and helloooooo early twenties! lets keep up the fun.

Bx
P.S i went to see The Kings Speech today and it was amaaaaazing.
fully recommend it. i'm going to learn a royal and regal british accent one day, it's well nice ;)

aaand adeles new album is out in 2 DAAAAYS.
so flippin' excited. theres another track released on it, "someone like you"
search it on youtube, its beautiful and i completely love every lyric of it.

see you when i'm twenty, k bye.

red?

might just be me going completely out of my mind with boredom doing this project...

but, i'm seriously considering dying my hair red for the new year?

not too bold or bright or anything...just a reddish tinge?

or does this scream blonde hair disaster 2010 all over again?! hmmm. i'll have more of a think.

looking forward to finishing this project hopefully tonight,

then shopping with mum followed by a mad night out in town 2moro night with the girls to see off leicester for the xmas season followed by my last seasonal shift at work and moving back up to leeds for a very cheeky otley run on saturday.

exciting times :)

Bx

the first few days of 2011 have been niceee :)

ive worked a few days and then been working on a uni project

and have managed to squeeze in a little pub trip to firebug for some cocktails with fat, trina and laura and some of their friends.

the bus never turned up to take me home, fantastic...so i had to get an 8POUNDS?! taxi from one village to another. but we had a laugh and it was lovely to have a catch up!

this time in 3 days i will be back in leeeeeeeeeeeds.

yessss, so excited to get back up there. it feels so different to when i was going back after summer.

no expectations. i'm just going up to work hard then play harder, deal?

..gonna' get back to the uni pool and gym.

..gonna' work solidly on revision and projects til thats all over.

..got a few otley runs lines up, including mine and chlo's joint one, which i am insaaanely excited about :)

..and then gonna' get back to the standard messy nights out with graphics and 62 :)

wooooop, bring it on.

really genuinely sad to be leaving leicester this time though. me and the girls have had such a laugh this holiday. i've even met a few lovely guys along the way :)

the future's looking good.

oh and i watched inception last night with david on a bit of a sibling movie night in...

AMAZING. soo, sooo good. i really enjoyed it!

leonardo and joseph gordon levitt can come and share my dreams whenever.

Bx

my last few years in photos

just found this amazing new little site called pummel vision, that takes all your photographs and puts them into a video of your life.

here's mine. i love it :)

right i promise i'll stop with all the reminiscing posts now and get my head back in the present.

i've still got a 15 page project and exam revision to do.

but i'm moving back to leeds a lot earlier now so that i can knuckle down and do it.

bring it on leeds. i've got a feeling leeds 2011 might be a good one ;)

looking forward to drinks with the leicester girls tonight tho!

Bx

two thousand and ten ♥

what a year. here's a few of my highlights to round the year off :)

its been SUCH a good oneeeeee!

january

-brought in the year with horrible tonsillitis/minor glandular fever, awful!

-hit leicester's liquid for the first time with the gang on some reunion nights

-birth of MAYO GIRLS ♥

-"washing your hair in the bath is like having a shit in your pants"

-turned nineteen :) (and had a xmas dinner for it, as i couldn't eat my actual xmas dinner from that year)

-meze platterrrrrrs at the castle local

-shopping in meadow hall with bday money on a trip back up to leeds

-refreshers weeeeeeek! messy!

-a fab pirate night (the first of many) for laura's bday, playing dead outside maccy dee's and spelling out cunt outside maccy d's ...hilarious!

february

-my phone was stolen...haha! the first of many from 2010! this time it was literally stolen from my bag, which was ashame 'cos it was quite a good night out in cockpit

- cheeky pre-cocktails before orange weds nights with chlo in browns, with fit bartenders

- pat's bday night in gatecrasher...well, a pre-party in the flat with an absolute randomer then out to gatecrasher toilets and home with chlo!

- went on a lunch date to ls6 ;)

- went to church for the first time in leeds and after a long time of completely abandoning my home church in leics, met some lovely people and fell back in love with my faith

march

- took a cheeky trip to sheffield to see bowler - firefighters, swedish guys and cheesey chips!

haha and squeezed in a macdonalds breakfast the next day feeling rough as! ..."so do you ever get called ikea? are you gonna' order us some meatballs?"

- nearly not getting into space because of my real id...and being too drunk to realise they wanted my signature.

- road trip to lancaster for the silent disco! there was literally like no one there but a very funny night with char to the countryside haha :)

-took a graphics trip to the big NYC! such an amazing few days and got to know some of the graphics girls more. highlights were definitely sunbathing incentral park on a scorching day, walking across brooklyn bridge and sneaking out in the big city in a limo and getting into a bar. amazing memories.

april

- went to my first lcfc football match with my mum - we lost. haha

- went on my first night out in life in leicester...a horrific night out as it was too busy and crammed full of under-agers cos it was a bank holiday sunday night, but we had a laugh

- nottingham and melton weekend with chlo and char! then back to leicester in life with char and bowler! good times :)

-messy one with the girls in mosh...met dan radcliffe in highcross haha NAAAAT

-carried on dying my hair blonde...the ginger progression started here haha!

may

- lost another phone, fantastic!

- started going swimming in the new uni pool and became obsessed with swimming again...although realised how rubbish i had got at it

- more pranks with the 103 bunch and the 103 wannabe ;)

-the creation of the db committee and non stop staying up and playing ball games etc

-day trips into leeds and going to that weird little italian cafe place with char and dan

-a visit from gran

-end of exams and the start of a 4 month summer!

-end of graphics night out in fav with too many sambuca shots

-trips for milkshakes and the fruit shop in headingly with 103 and wannabe crew :)

-attempted to make raisins with a hairdrier.

-cheeky little trip back to leicester for an art show, pub day drinks, glenstock 2010! and a lovely family barbeque

june

-went back to leeds for an amaaazing last few days of freshers year

-freshers ball, florence and the machine...everyone looked really lovely all dressed in black tie and amazing music from scratch perverts until 7 in the morning with dan. such an amazing way to end the freshers year

-moved out of 103f and spent most of the journey back welling up about how i didn't want to leave. so hard to say goodbye to all the amazing memories we had in that flat.

-lovely first few days of summer -drinks in firebug, bike riding in braggers, pints at the pub

-"it's okay when you do it up the nostril, that's well far away from the falopian tubes"

-had a classic night out with trina and her man to watch the england match in a PACKED liquid...haha naaaat. told mitchell 5 things about me though and bonded :) haha

-coffee day trip to town with bowler ended up being an afternoon of cocktails in firebug

-day trip to the bullring for a cheeky bit of shopping and ended up going to sutton coldfield to see daniel. didn't leave til about ten after completely forgetting to keep an eye of the trains haha but lovely walk and drinks in sutton park :)

-had a week of getting drunk 6 out of 7 days. nice.

-went out on a messy mosh night dressed as a geek with my fave form bessie soph :)

july

-lots of blog banter from the leics gang: "theres nothing i love more than a cool cocktail on a summer night then an early night to allow a full day of activities tomorrow"

-the birth of our amazingly rubbish pub quiz team BITCH FROGS haha!

-went on a cheeky mosh night and met a lovely guy. ruined it completely though over the next few weeks

-took a cheeky trip to manchester for a big night out in birmingham then a quiet one in, in her pub! loved printworks and tiger and then loved hanging out in her pub and then a trip to macc the next day haha

-won five drinks betting on the world cup.

-corfu 2010! aaaaamazing. -"HEY, YOU WERENT ON MY BOAT TODAY?! I TELL YOU WHY...I FORGOT." and becca's special cocktails ;) all our greek friends, the best holiday apartments ever and some lovely walks up the cliff faces of arillas. outstanding family holiday!

-buffet babes on tour in leeds!!! where do i even start to bullet point this whole trip in a few words? buffet. drink. 4pm wake ups and some hilarious house guests! a few days that completely set us up on some hilarious nights out for the rest of the year, gooooood memories!

-char and dan came to leicester for an amazing night out in leicester with the leicester gang, then took a cheeky day trip to braggers the next day and had to stand and listen to a history guy for hourss "i'd love to a be a fly on the wall in that"

-then took a spontaneous trip up north to chars pub and after earning our way by washing up in the back we had a cheeky few drinks and a movie night :) then travelled back home with an encounter with a vole along the way...

-funny night with grace and lucy, little bar crawl followed by maccy d's after not being allowed in a club due to lucy. funny quotes include: "how big is he? well he's really hurt my throat at the back!!!"

-old school gynsills meal to say goodbye to lucy as she set off to korea!

-trip to scotland. had an amazing little trip to edinburgh for the day to the fringe festival in the sun and then chilled out with the cousins..."IS SHE SCARED HER PO-POREE'S GONNEE GET WET?"

-trips to dan in birmingham, including some very funny would you rathers

-our first back streets of leicester night with the buffet babes! poppers (on my top!) plenty of never before been to pubs and bars, cheeky free drinks and cocktails and amy nose diving, hilarious night!

august

-"no matter how big it is, keeping it informal" -some nights in the pub and then in town for a bar crawl on the other side of leicester including loaded dog and time bar :)

-took a cheeky road trip to nottingham with dan and his shit car haha, had to roll it to get back home again, but a pretty lovely day out :)

september

-dyed my hair dark again, see you later summer blondeee! bit too dark though, ended up starting the new term looking a bit gothic.

-moved back to leeds and into 62 with the lovely 62 gang! such an amazing first few days

-had first drinks back with the graphics lot turned into boob and sick night...not much banter about it anymore though...

-got back into the swing of things on graphics by walking past the lecturers accidentally shouting, "its embarassing that im even doing this course" good start.

-had some hilarious pub trips and some cheeky returns to our fav clubs and a new fave...warehouse.

-also had some hilarious after-club events inlcuding indoor water fights and pasta down the stairs!

october

-white t shirt otley run night! such a good night, with most of my tshirt ending up covered in tits and some hilarious photos.

-sixties night in fruity for sallys bday :) whipped off my tights in the middle of the union, lovely.

-house party at sashas and i invited housemates and friends who also brought housemates and friends, not cool as a guest of someone elses party...especially when they steal kitchen knives.. hahaa! but a funny night.

-trip home to see granny buchanan for a weekend

-got back and immediately hit the pub for a quiet few and got thrown out for smashing a glass

-CABS ARE HEREEEE weekend in sheffield with the buffet babes. a hilarious night out with a buffet, too much wine and lots of caaaaaabs!!! up til the early hours mouthing off jersey shore sayings and yelling at next door ;) quality weekend! ..."not being funny, but is that a women? OH AMY SOME OF US ARE STILL EATING!"

november

-halloween night in mission and then one in evolution were classic nights. can't remember much from either of them apart from plenty of drama haha!

-itchy feet night. amazing music and an amazing set of people out with us. danced the night away and had no drama!

-bonfire night was absolutely amazing. went to the fireworks and the 62 girls bought a house pet fish called OH, NEIL THE FISH. but sadly it didn't make it through the weekend. haha and then after a cheeky few in the pub i went back to jess' house to chill out with the 28 crew, and some graphics for a more personal bonfire and some music. such a good night!

-vic's birthday wig night saw me go back to blonde for one night only! got hilariously drunk and went to the arc and a bizarre atmosphere in a non-weds gatecrasher!

-trips to the german market!!! such funny times in there..once with the 62 gang and dan and twice with paddy, jess and the 28 gang. hilarious singing and dancing on benches with our german beer..."BLE BLA BLAH BLAAAH, TAKE ME HOME, COUNTRY ROADS."

-a trip from david and the boyyyyyys...or a very delayed one at that. funny when they finally arrived though with plenty of drinks and a interesting night out in varsity and a very enthusiastic gay guy ;) haha

-contemporary carols with chlo and bec was lovely, mince pie, mulled wine and a lovely service in the fab st georges.

december

-a very snowy otley run! just about broke my arm braving 6 inches of snow for an otley run, but we all looked wicked dressed as reindeers! then after realising it was silly to attempt a full one, everyone came back to 62 for a huge amazing house party complete with dj and house chaos.

-went swimming with chlo but ended up getting very drunk afterwards in the library pub and had a good old gossip!

-sammy's bday night in gatecrasher was wicked! house drinking games in sixty two before hand are always hilarious and got us nicely drunk, we love a bit of either mushroom or touching glass. gatecrasher was interesting, but had a good dance with the law lot and 62 gang.

-house xmas day was lovely! had an amazing xmas dinner and lovely secret santa prezzies and then got nicely drunk, sang disney songs, crossed dressed and went to a house party. got hilariously mardy at chlo on the way home "BECCA, YOUR GOING THE WRONG WAY."

-huge pub reunion with jw and lucy and went back to see their house! so good to see them both and have a huge catch up :)

-last graphics night before xmas...3 bottles of wine, pizza and chilled out back at mine for a bit, lovely lovely.

-buffet babes night out back in leicester...cheeky bar crawl back on our fave street!

-mosh night out with the whole of groby college alumni! was lovely to have meet up with some old faces and a good catch up :)

-nye night saw off the end of 2010 by heading out to 02 for a hilarious night with bowler and bffl with the standard, too much drink, lots of boys, plenty of banter, a couple of nosedives, a cheeky taxi driver, a maryland meal or two, and some amazingly funny pictures!

oh my gosh this post has literally taken me so so long!

what a year though, i've loved looking back on it! sooooo many memories i had completely forgotten about, but were so so good. so much has happened this year. ♥

i'll be honest, some of these memories i did well up a little reading back on. such good times.

thank you to everybody involved in these memories. i hope you'll be involved in many more in 2011.

bring it on 2011, you've got big shoes to fill.

thank you 2010. you were outstanding ♥

Bx