You're not gonna' like me, i'm nothing like before.

Woah!

Such a sad amount of time since i've posted on here. Let's be honest though, i'm never gonna completely give up on this thing!

I use this blog to look back on things and (judging by the last post...paaa) sometimes my posts are a bit sad and not great things, most of the time i write on here so i remember all the amazing things that have gone on throughout the year! So, understandably, i've not wanted to write on here for a very long time.

It sounds horribly depressing, but not much has gone well for me over the past 3 months. I've honestly changed for it. I'm not gonna' write loads about it, because I don't think i'll ever really forget it or need reminding. But i've learnt a lot of really tough lessons from all the stress of lots of different things that have happened and that's what I need to take from it. My mum literally gave me the best advice she's ever given me throughout, she told me "Rebecca you have to look out for only yourself. People don't care like you do, they'll let you down."

So, it sounds absolutely awful, but now I look out for only me. Because for the first time ever, i've learnt you really can't trust any other single person to look out for you.

Anyway, i really didn't want to post much about that. So we'll move on to happier things. I think before I last posted I hadn't even found a placement? Well after literally countless applications and emails and a few interviews, I finally got myself a design internship job in a small business in Leeds.

I'm still there and yet i'm going back to university, because quite honestly, i'm completely done with Leeds. It's like i'm done with it and I just want the next stage of my life to come now, i'm ready to get a degree and then get a job I really love in a new city and experience new things.

I've also decided over the past week what i'm going to do after graduation. I've not told anyone yet, it's pretty fresh this ;) haha, but i'm gonna go away for a few months and travel and explore around Italy. It's a country i've been dying to go to for years and theres really so many places I want to visit, I think I could easily spend weeks there just seeing it all and developing some design knowledge and photography whilst i'm out there.

So i've finally got something really set in my mind that i'm looking forward to. I think it's important to have that at the moment, it'll help with motivation massively. It's also gonna take a lot of saving too, but I can handle it.

Over the year i'm gonna just work my bloody arse off for this degree, prove to everyone that it's not a cop out not doing a specific industry year ...and then get the hell out of here.

But for now, i'm gonna bring hey, fox back haha ;) so watch this space

Looooove,

Bx