obviously i'm loving being back in leeds and seeing everyone, but i can't help feeling like these are the last few weeks ever with most of these people.
...as if i'll ever manage to stay as close to these amazing friends i've made, not even knowing myself where-abouts i'll be next year.
and most of my closest friends here, it feels like i've known for yeears. its so sad and i'm struggling a bit getting my head around it.
not gonna' lie, i'm majorly holding back the tears already. i'm so jealous of everyone coming back and doing third year together next year.
then obviously my course is majorly getting to me too. i absolutely love it, i love design and it's what I want to be doing, but the job prospects are awful and i'm shit compared to all the people i'm competing with to get these stupid placements.
the fact that i can't even interest people with offering companies to work for free, doesn't sound too great for my future career. fantastic.
2 rejections. heaps of ignored emails. tons of time wasted searching for internships. it's ridiculous.
hating it.
it's not even as if summer will be good. apart from this bb holiday, which i am SO excited for (it's about the only good thing going at the moment!) then everyone's gonna be off away from leicester. and with the prospect of not having a student loan next year, i probably won't have much money to much apart from sit at home with the rents.
gaaaah. i'm gonna go revise. fuck this.
Bx
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