"messed you about."

it would save a lot of hurt if all men just said "i don''t want to be in a relationship" the moment they met me. but oh no, please feel free to string me along for weeks or months, let feelings develop then dump me off. all of you...

i'm hurting tonight. not so much because of that silly work-a-holic "man."

more because it just keeps happening, i feel like my whole life is just a string of let downs

and also to be honest, i'm finding it difficult living away from friends. i need to stop pretending that i'm fine with it, because its lonely. its lonely at times like this when i don't want strangers to see me upset, but i could do with someone to have a laugh with to take my mind of my stupid stupid crappy life.

how many days 'til xmas please? i need a break.

Bx