it won't make sense right now but you're still her friend.

(i'll warn you now, this is such a moan moan moan, stress stress stress post.)

i have 3 deadlines coming up...

1, im so almost finished working on, but i have 2 books to produce and they are so frustrating to work on my reeeeally slow indesign - to be honest, i just think my mac has had enough and can't be bothered any more today. not cool, man up.

the second, i can hardly work out how to do... i have a 25 page booklet of illustrator drawings to produce. and at the moment i have about 10 half-hearted attempts. they would have been better if i knew what the fuck i was doing with the software.

and 3, a portfolio of web animations on flash...yet again another piece of stupidly irritatingly hard software i have no idea to work...oh and just whack it up on a custom made dream-weaver website. cheers, cool that'll be easy babe. (should have started this one about 6 weeks ago. should be interesting to produce in about 4 days.)

i hate my life.

honestly, my biggest biggest wish is just to completely skip next week and wake up next monday morning in my bed back at home with no deadlines, just xmas to look forward to.

if bloody only...

i so need a break. and i so need to go back at home and just clear my head from everything here too. i've had enough, i love leeds to absolute bits and i'm going to miss everyone so so much here, but i need to get back to the girls back home. i need the stupidly rubbish dancefloors of leicester city. i need to just chill out with the rents in front of the tv and not have to worry about anything. i need some proper meals(!) and i need some time away to fully get over a certain situation...no reminders, so that i can really get it in to my head that thats it, i've fucked it up, done.

but on the brighter side, we had a sick house party after a completely frozen otley run on weds.

-tons of really nice new people that i had never met before came back to our house. and we had full dj decks, so raging amaaazing music and so much drink. so so much fun!

and me and chlo got absolutely hammered last night going for a few girly drinks after a swim, we had a right drunken laugh... NAAAAAT. errrrrrrror.

and the xmas tree's up in the lounge which makes it look so so nice and festive :)

so these last few days are nice.

it would just be a lot nicer if these deadlines pissed right off. thaaaaank-you goodnight.

Bx

P.S coldplay's new christmas track is quite honestly, beautiful.

and robyn's track "call your girlfriend" is bang on. ha.