new year's resolutions

okay so last year i wrote up my new years resolutions for 2010, here they were:

here are my new years resolutions. i'm keeping them this year.

1. i will go blonde. i need a big image change, i'm bored and exciteddd

it's gonna' be pricey to maintain but i hope it'l be better, i'd like it a mix between fearne cotton's and kate moss

2. i will be healthier. that means yeah stay out til all hours drinking, partying meeting fab new people and tearing up the dancefloor. but maybe take it easy with more sleep, more relaxing and maybe eating a few more greens.

3. i will hopefully find prince charming. i really hope this years the year.

but i'm not gonna' go out searching, 'cos that only finds you the idiots

i hope they'l find me, someone to adore and be adored by..

4. i will worry less and this will let me work harder to reach for my dreams.

and here's how i think i did...

1. definitely did keep this one. i tried my hardest and after many embarrassing failed attempts (shades of ginger) i did eventually reach a shade of blonde. it completely ruined my hair though and dried it out, but they were really fun months and i did quite like some of the shades, i much prefer being back to brunette tho' so i think i'll stick with this in 2011 :)

2. i have definitely been more healthier. i have eaten much less, probs because i prefer spending money on nights out than food...haha, and i do sleep more during naps and the occasional night in! but compared to last years freshers flu, swine flu and tonsillitus, it has definitely been a much healthier year :)

3. HA. ermmm, i definitely haven't found anything near a prince charming. i found a few prince dickheads hahaa and completely learnt my lesson by being stupid enough to even believe in guys any more. i'm stopping looking for a guy. i've got a stupid habit of getting too attatched and carried away anyway.

4. i definitely worry much less. and have fully thrown myself at it this year. it's been amazing :) also i've refound my faith, i don't really like writing about it on my blog, but it has really helped this year, i've got a lot of confidence back :) ♥

so now my new years resolutions for this year...

1. i will spend more time updating this blog and not completely disown it now that i have to work on my design ones.

2. i will join the uni gym properly, rather just wasting away my loan on pool fee's.

3. i will stop the ridiculous becca whine! (or reduce it! haha, it is my normal tone of voice..)

4. i will stop mentioning the usual becca drunken whine. even i don't care anymore.

5. i will live up these next 6 months of uni, but remember to work hard before deadlines kick in, to avoid the absolute panic breakdown!

6. i will have fun and stop being so serious about guys.. we're only young, single and freeee once in our lives, these are meant to be the best years ;)

7. i will stop losing things on nights out and will hold onto my phone this year!

8. i will take lots more pictures of lots more nights out with the leicester gang, the 62 gang, the graphics gang and all the other stunners i have such a laugh with. bring on plenty more amazing memories and amazing nights!

so thats my resolutions for 2011. bring it on :) Bx

just gearing myself up to do the big round up of the whole year post. i did it last year, but i feel like so much more has happened to put on my highlights this year...this might take a while...

"...I KNOW WE COULD HAVE HAD IT ALL."

girrrrrrls, i am so so sorry this blog post has taken so long!

it's been weeks, what the hell have i been doing?!

right so last saturday was our first official big night out back in the lestaaaaa big city for xmas!

woop woop :)

it started off with a few polite 'prinks' in haytor to warm us up for the backstreets and alleys, but it never takes us buffet babes too long for the drama to kick in ;)

firstly we met "victor" - thats definitely not his name, but he likes to use it on his taxi radio thing "VICTOR, OVER." ...pretty much a glorified stage name.

bowler got a friend request on facebook after the usual bit of cheeky taxi driver banter ;) ...more on victor later.

then we met up with chazza d and amy francis for some brief, very pricey drinks in the lovely fat cats cafe, then went and had a little less classy drinks at a rammo'ed walkabout!

from what i can remember from walkabout...i'm pretty sure we had a fair few shots and drinks, absolutely ripped up the little dancefloor, met a few cheeky elfs, a guy who literally was going for the dancemoves, a very odd flirty guy in a patterned jumper, and a photographer who got jumped on. oh and a few old ladies that looked awkward to even be in the same room as half of the crowd, let alone on the dancefloor.

managed to take my coat off and leave it and then get in back again, so i was very impressed.

then after becoming suitably hammered, we headed back to the back roads to find our new fave, marz bar. could not love it more these days, well under-rated, although i've never been there sober so i couldn't tell you what the kind of scene it is inside, and what the crowds like...

anyway after getting inside we worked a few cheeky lines at the bar and found ourselves in the company of 3 lovely gents...

maybe i should leave it there...but amelia pulled a grenade for the team and lorenzo found herself with a right hunky australian meanwhile belinda found herself being bought drinks by a very attractive fella ;)

hahaaaaa. by the time we were being asked to leave, amelia could barely stand. we literally were having to drag her upright, but it's fine 'cos at the top of the stairs..."WHERE SHALL WE GO NOW?" classic buffet babe behaviour, i was so proud.

so naturally, we got a stamp to a place we've never heard of. followed whoever was standing in front of us and found ourselves in yet another back venue of leicester.

bowler of course nosedived it as soon as she got into the place... standard ;)

and i lost everyone thinking they we upstairs in the biggest, weirdest dancefloor you could possibly fit in that place.

but eventually we left, for somewhere 17miles out of leicester, cool.

but me and amy smelt maryland chicken, and theres no turning away when that happens... so it quickly turned into maryland followed by an encounter on route to mc-donalds...

"...you taste ..lovely..."

and got an ear-bashing from a very disappointed lorenzo in maccy-dees.

then a brief 343545656324343545 hours wait in the minus a million degree's weather (amy had lost her tights by now. decided she was warm enough in december without them ;) hahaa "JUST TAKE 'EM OFF!") and eventually got picked up by "victor!"

literally my faaaaave taxi driver ever.

1. plays personal mix-tape cd's on demand. was it jason derulo's album? fully can't remember..

2. banter a-plenty.

3. instantly adds passengers on facebook.

4. very amusing remarks about people walking down the street

5. buys a lighter and lets you smoke in the cab

6. listens to request banter and actually bought us a bottle of coke

whatta guy. fully completed the night!

another classic buffet babe night :) absolutely love them. bring on summer 2011, i can't begin to think what us girls in a foreign country for a week will get up too ;) pahahaa!

anyway, in other news.

i have had a lovely past week.

it has obviously been christmas :) i had a lovely day thank-you. i've been working loads so it felt genuinely really nice just to spend a few days chilling out at home with the family. gran was down from scotland too, so it was lovely to see her and spend some time with her too :)

i went to see the king and i with her and mum last night too, at the new(ish) theatre in leicester. i LOVE a musical, so it was lovelyyyy, and the romance in it was so nice to watch. i love a good costume too, and it was well interesting to see all the backstage stuff when they open it up at the end too...all part of the building's design. loved it.

and last tuesday was really nice too. had a yummy meal with the whole gang (minus grace :( ) and lots of really nice cocktails too. very civilized for us, it made a lovely change from gynsills! haha!

then i hit mosh with the rest of the entire alumni and present population of groby college!

it was absolutely wicked to catch up with some of them! i love seeing mates i don't really get the chance to fully meet up and catch up with, so that was really really good! but there were a couple of people that really disappointed me on how rude they were.

not gonna' mention there names but old friends don't behave like that, you should be ashamed and start being more polite, complete bitches.

oh and i did get too too drunk and then had a whine and got a bit upset over something that absolutely means nothing haha! standard drunk becca behaviour! must stop this.

but yeah...update complete.

i'm back to work 2moro, woop...

but got a massive nye night planned with my buffet baaaaabes ♥ and went shopping and got a fit new dress to wear for it today :) so i'm fully excited for that.

got myself a new blackberry today too...but it doesn't work, loving that, because my old phone runs out of contract tomorrow, so i'll be back to square one again. 2 phones. no working sim.

lovely lovely. haaa.

anyway, niiiiiiight.

Bx

we could have had it all.

actually love, love, loveeeeeeeeee this.

adele is literally my faveeee artist, she has such a stunning voice!

some absolute babe out there, please buy me her new album for my birthday, i've been waiting for it for 2 years. ♥

i'm excited for tommorow.

i feel like its the start of the festive season from then... (this week's just been pretty much a work week)

can't wait for drinks with some of my fave leicester girls/buffet bitches ;)

and roll on the new year, i'm gonna' make it a flippin' amazing one.

i already feel sooooo much better. excuse my language but fuck that shit from last term.

Bx

P.S katy B's "lights on" is wicked tooooo. getting far too into the dub-step genre.

shine a light on her...

eurgh, why am i back?!

1. no one is here.

2. i'm working pretty much everyday this week - not complaining, 'cos its nice to work for people and i feel like i'm doing something practical and i'm really grateful for the much needed shifts, but its the "holidays" and to be honest i'm completely not used to working/early mornings.

3. i have no money to do anything but work.

4. even my brother isn't around. he completely sacked me off tonight to go to the cinema with his mates when he knew full well he had promised to go and see harry potter with me. i was fully excited and had been looking forward to it for aaages and even stopped plans to see chlo and go to the cinema with her. and now i'm very very very very pissed off.

not speaking to him now for about a week. care.

eurgh i'm so annoyed and bored and missing leeds tonight.

i think i'm just bored and annoyed at life. being back home reminds me of how excited i was over the summer to get back to leeds and start this new term in a house and this new relationship i thought was on the cards and this whole exciting new year at uni.

now it's christmas and i've come back from yeah an amazing term, but i'm well lonely haaa.

i shouldn't be pissed off at my brother for not going to the cinema with me...i should have a lovely fella' dying to take me.

oh wellllllllll.

i have chatted far too much shit on this blog tonight.

for now, i'm just gonna' go for a run...not doing anything so may aswell get haaaaawt doing nothing paha.

then watch the apprentice. margarets back. booooooom!

over and out. Bx

may all your troubles soon be gone, oh christmas lights keep shining on.

hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.

back in leicester for the christmas holidays :)

(well i say christmas, pretty much the whole of sodding winter. 6 weeks! leeds university completely takes the piss with holidays!)

but i'm first back so officially reaaaaally bored!

and i haven't even got any money to take myself off and do the usual browse round town with a starbucks to go. rubbish.

but i've got lots of shifts lined up which should a) keep me occupied and b) get some dollar back in my pocket! woop woop!

i'm so excited to see all the girls again! and have a huuuuge mess of a night out :)

the last week of leeds was really good though.

after i battled through the most stressful deadline week ever, we had some right good nights out!

wednesday night we celebrated sammy's birthday in gatecrasher!!

it was a strange one. i had a realllyyyy good night dancing away, gatecrasher play some absolutely wicked music and its provided literally the best nights out since the start of second year. and i loved everyone that came out, housiesss and the law lovelies, even bumped into a few graphics coursemates :) but other stuff going on disrupted it a bit. i'm so proud of myself for how i handled it though, i did very well not to get upset. hahaaa

then thursday we had our 62 house christmas day.

the gang made an absolutely amaaaazing xmas dinner for us all. our plates were literally stacked high with a mountain of food! then we also had crackers and gave and received our secret santas, which everyone did really well with.

my pyjama's from boylin are great, thank you lovely :)

we had a lot of wine and cava throughout the afternoon though, so it wasn't long before we were belting out the disney songs (tomothy!) and cross dressing to go to a house party!

the house party was a laugh, but you're never gonna have that good a night when everyone else is rolling around in sexy little dress up outfits and we thought it would be funny to turn up in guys clothing... ;) haha. chlo had a massive mard on the way home too. i'll let her off though for the amount of times she has to put up with me in a mard tho!

probs the most ridiculously funny moment when i had to storm back past her after i'd stormed off the wrong way tho! hahaaa!

then friday me and boylin went to dan's for a jabba like in the good ol' days and had a good laugh at his community centre house furnishings...paha. and then the last of us standing -apart from bec who had to work :( hit the pub for some last drinks.

we bumped into JW and lucy which was soooooo so good to see them both! i can't believe we haven't met up all term! so we had a right good laugh and a catch up and went back to theirs and had a little look at their house.

then saturday i just chilled out and enjoyed a day of doing nothing but sitting in front of the tv and saying my goodbyes to everyone leaving. i went off to the pub in the evening to say goodbye to some of the graphics lot.

got through 2 bottles then decided to have the third back at my house seeing as no one was in, so they came back to mine :) had a right laugh and a pizza then called it a night.

all in all, a very good end of term!

and already looking back at it, i miss leeeeeeds :(

bring on next term. and everyone get back to leicester please. i want leicester antics to begin!

Bx

just a quickie!

i have one more day to go before i'm finished with these horrible deadlines.

i've guaranteed failed one of my modules which is completely my own time management and lack of skills fault. i'm ashamed with what i've produced.

but i really really am past caring now.

i'm sick of having a headache from the stress of it all.

i'm sick of barely being able to sleep from all the worry.

i'm sick of getting up at 9 and working til 1/2am.

and i'm sick of not having a life outside of my mac screen.

i'm just sick of it. dhgriurwdasjfheiouroeadfj.

tommorow will be amazing to go out an get absolutely smashed for sam's birthday.

bring. it. on.

i don't care anymore.

Bx

gave you all my time now i can't get it back

this was played at the pub last night, i had completely forgotten about it!

such a massive tuneeeee back in the day, love it!

right enough. i need to work. Bx

it won't make sense right now but you're still her friend.

(i'll warn you now, this is such a moan moan moan, stress stress stress post.)

i have 3 deadlines coming up...

1, im so almost finished working on, but i have 2 books to produce and they are so frustrating to work on my reeeeally slow indesign - to be honest, i just think my mac has had enough and can't be bothered any more today. not cool, man up.

the second, i can hardly work out how to do... i have a 25 page booklet of illustrator drawings to produce. and at the moment i have about 10 half-hearted attempts. they would have been better if i knew what the fuck i was doing with the software.

and 3, a portfolio of web animations on flash...yet again another piece of stupidly irritatingly hard software i have no idea to work...oh and just whack it up on a custom made dream-weaver website. cheers, cool that'll be easy babe. (should have started this one about 6 weeks ago. should be interesting to produce in about 4 days.)

i hate my life.

honestly, my biggest biggest wish is just to completely skip next week and wake up next monday morning in my bed back at home with no deadlines, just xmas to look forward to.

if bloody only...

i so need a break. and i so need to go back at home and just clear my head from everything here too. i've had enough, i love leeds to absolute bits and i'm going to miss everyone so so much here, but i need to get back to the girls back home. i need the stupidly rubbish dancefloors of leicester city. i need to just chill out with the rents in front of the tv and not have to worry about anything. i need some proper meals(!) and i need some time away to fully get over a certain situation...no reminders, so that i can really get it in to my head that thats it, i've fucked it up, done.

but on the brighter side, we had a sick house party after a completely frozen otley run on weds.

-tons of really nice new people that i had never met before came back to our house. and we had full dj decks, so raging amaaazing music and so much drink. so so much fun!

and me and chlo got absolutely hammered last night going for a few girly drinks after a swim, we had a right drunken laugh... NAAAAAT. errrrrrrror.

and the xmas tree's up in the lounge which makes it look so so nice and festive :)

so these last few days are nice.

it would just be a lot nicer if these deadlines pissed right off. thaaaaank-you goodnight.

Bx

P.S coldplay's new christmas track is quite honestly, beautiful.

and robyn's track "call your girlfriend" is bang on. ha.