"You is kind. You is smart. You is important."

woah majorly PMS'ing on that last post, completely worked myself out of that little meltdown!

i'm back to the usual love of leeds again.

erm this week i've watched my pretend housemates walk across fire

then had a spontaneous and very drunken night out to tiger tiger... it's rude not to on a tues.

and on weds went to the cinema to see "the help" and really loved it. the stories really moving and a lot of it made me realise how badly the racism was back in america in those years, but it had quite a few laughs in it too and the actresses were all well good!

then on friday after a non-stop manic day at uni - literally smashed 8 and a half hours (with only half an hour break) of feedback sessions. ridiculously exhausted but went for quiet drinks at the pub and obviously ended up heavily drinking until 2 o clock in the morning and really twisting my ankle. standaaaard.

then this weekend has been lovely too, just a chilled out lunch with king tits, then a cheeky pop back to hers for apple pie and custard until the early evening! then tonight im popping round to my real leeds home to watch xfactor with the gang.

all in all, not a bad week at all! not half as bad as whatever i was going on about in my last post!

excited for wednesday next week and to get going on a new design brief, such an nerd.

Bx

P.S watching james corden last night made me completely fall in love with him, although i was already falling the minute i read his piece in glamour magazine this week. check out this quote:

"Going through heartache? Remember tonight when you lay your head down on your pillow, that someone, somewhere is laying their head down on their pillow too, and that person is going to see things in you that the last guy never did. They are going to love you and you will love them more than you ever dreamt possible. And you'll be glad of the experience you're going through now, because it will have made you wiser, stronger and ultimately happier. We are all just one tiny moment away from happiness - and, like the guy in the cafe I have a feeling it could be just around the corner."

Oh my word, what an absolute babe.

feeling like shit.

having a bit of a mid-term crisis or meltdown and i'm in a really funny mood.

i think things don't really stay good for very long for me

and its not very fair. and yet i'm also freaking out for absolutely nothing.

oh and i'm really seriously toying with the idea of giving up drinking. i'm starting to really not enjoy what it does to me, i don't turn into a person i'm very proud of or happy about being.

it's just difficult when it also brings on the best moments of my life too.

wahhh, im going to the cinema to drown all this out with a different story.

goodbye and goodnight. Bx

la la laaa

oh, hiiii.

just taking a quick breather from doing some uni work in my dining room at home in leicester to do a quick post :)

i've been at home since saturday and getting myself ready this evening to get back on the rails to leeds. it's actually been a lovely little break. i came back on saturday morning, very hungover after a late night of drinking with my new date. more on that in a bit ;) ...then as soon as i arrived david dragged me to an open day at dmu, which should have made me angry but i was genuinely chuffed he'd asked me to go, cos its tradition isn't it! anyway, then i went home showered and slept and then my bb's came over for some predrinks, xfactor and a typically very drunken bb night out in leicester.

we hit a few cheeky bar, lots of wine and drinks then got a very drunk cctv taxi across to o2 for a cheeky bit of dancing :) then ate a completely awful amount of chicken in maryland haha. standaaaard bb night! love you girls ♥

then sunday and today i've just chilled really! enjoyed home cooking, caught up on loads of tv and squeezed in a tiny bit of work.

excited to get back to leeds again now tho. the course is still really stressing me out with the amount of work i've got on, but i'm loving my fashion editorial project and i'm quite motivated to get going on my dissertation this week too.

oh and my lovely new date. he doesn't read this (yet. hahaa) but things are going really well. very early days and i'm fully jinxing it, but hopefully i'll see him again this week. we've had a few nights out on call lane with lots of wine and a lovely night in watching shit films and eating chinese and i'm genuinely excited about it all. fingers crossed things might finally work out good :)

Bx

"lights will guide you home"

i need a massive holiday,

but nah this dissertations a fair trade. i enjoy reading about curatorship... not.

on the other hand i'm loving life in leeds still

its all a bit confusing and chaotic at the moment, but isn't that what leeds has always been about?

more than excited to see my bb girls on saturday.

i miss you pair! and we have so much to discuss! <3 ...and then get hammered and wait until bowlers stacked it before we come home ;)

tomorrow i have such a busy day! i am art directing and shooting my first ever fashion editorial photoshoot. i'm really excited about it! it's gonna be quite a different direction im taking, but i think thats just because im completely obsessed with LOVE magazine these days. but yeah and then i have a few meetings and then kingtits 21st birthday night.

interesting...

bye now :) Bx

"you found out ive got a crush on you"

oops another good week or so since i've blogged. sorry!

i've been so so busy with work! genuinely third year is so much work and pressure and stress, which sounds awful, but i'm really enjoying getting stuck in this year. and i guess it's a lot easier to be motivated to work without all my coursemates around me, but i do miss them all so so much.

i had such a lovely catch up with geneva last week and saw sasha briefly on friday which was great to see them both because i had been feeling so down about everything that's happened and whether people would just never see me again because of going back this year. but they told me some really interesting things and i'm so much happier about it and sad for my behaviour last year. it's almost like i finally have an explanation what this should have taught me and finally it's like i can learn and move on from it.

erm i've had a couple of great nights out. i met up with hannah from my internship work on friday night for cocktails and we had such a funny night and met some great people, particularly a very enthusiastic 30 year old glaswegian! and it was great to get the low down on the company. it definitely was the right decision completely to leave when i did. and my boss has been in contact with a positive response about the reference, so thats finally a load off my mind too.

this week has been a bit quieter on the evenings front. chlo came over for a girly sleepover and a cookery class on monday night. we donated blood during the day, so i very very almost fainted whilst cooking in the evening (although maybe that was just being so overwhelmed at actually cooking?!) haha, but yeah it was great to donate again. people that don't do it for no real reason, really should. it saves lives and honestly doesn't hurt for longer than a split of a second.

and then the rest of this week has been spent working on my many projects. not really sure what the weekend has lined up for me, but hopefully i'll find something fun to do. although i do need to do a lot of reading for my dissertation...

probably gonna go get on with my day now.

loveees. Bx

let the sunshine

the weather this week has been amaaazing.

literally a whole week of heatwave and solid sun

theres been pretty much days of sunbathing, pimms and lazing around enjoying it.

it's been perfect, i'm so happy at the moment (bit worried that saying that too much will jinx it!)

this week theres also been a few laaavley nights out.

tiger on tuesday for cats bday was so good to be back out with the law lot all together having a laugh and too much vodka, standaaard.

then thursday i didn't mean to go out because i had "school" the next day but ended up staying out til 4 and clubbing it up in wire. whoooops!

then last night i braved vodka revs and call lane for emily's bday, but a lack of food and sleep meant i wasn't feeling so up for drinks and dancing so i left after a few cheeky cocktails for a actual well long sleep.

uni was been good this week too. ok, so i've only been in for a few hours, but this year looks like its going to be really intense and full on which is good because that's what i'm really looking for. i want to get well stuck in this year and prove what i'm made of in terms of becoming a designer.

i also found a few people to talk to and met a few new people, which is great because i was really nervous about being completely out on my own this year.

anyway. i'm absolutely sweating from walking about on errands in the sun today, so i'm off to chill down and start on some research for my projects.

thank you, goodbye :)

Bx