flash up on my phone, i no longer feel alone

tonight i should probably be revising, but it's too scary.

i think i have it under control, i know quite a lot about fundamentals of imaging i hope.

just nothing about the history of art and design. oops.

i'm scared because what if i fail these exams? then i fail to make it to my second year. i fail to make it back to the course and city i'm loving. i fail to do anything with all the opportunities given to me. i fail to have a chance at my dream job. and i'll have to go get a real job. oh.

thing is, this year i'm worrying less. it's all about optimism so i'll concentrate on the things i love and what work i have done. i will be fine. it's only 40percent after all!

i've been shopping today. bought two lovely jumper tops from river island, which means ive blown all the money i had for christmas. but i did need a new wardrobe. i saw a really nice dress and handbag i'm going back for next week too, but thats for my birthday. the winter seasons brill for moneyy ;) hehee.

i got a box of hair dye too. blonde. i'm so excited to go blonde, i was going to do it tonight but i'm not sure i have time. i decided against having it done professionally 'cos its too expensive and i'm a student with a trip to new york very soon.. i can't have everything, so i'm having more money for abercrombie and fitch clothing!

i'm back up to leeds for a few days of exams tommorow. i'm dead excited to get back in james baillie and see everyone, but the fun can't recommence til a few weeks 'cos of these stupid exams.. so i better not get myself too hyped up.

larkrise to candlefords on tonight so i'll go and watch that. there's nothing like a good period drama on a sunday. it's what sunday's where built for.

Bx

P.S small crush on ewan mcgregor keeps getting worse, might be falling a little bit in love.