"it's a hospital for the broken"

( i've decided i can't be bothered to do a rounding up last year post.

i can't really be bothered and i'm already over 2011 a bit! hello, it's 2012 ;) )

i posted this on my facebook yesterday which i was really anxious about,

my faith is nothing i'm ashamed of, but i really don't like people to assume something when you declare yourself a christian, or a muslim or hindu or whatever faith you have. and i've never been a big shouter about it. it's either something you know about me, or something you don't. it hurts most when people know and don't believe me.

but this video really tackles that, and it really sums up perfectly my faith.

i'm not a christian because i want to to everything perfectly and live this perfect life so that god will love me and i'll get a free pass in to heaven.

i'm a christian because i really believe that my god accepts my flaws and weaknesses and he is helping me to overcome them through his amazing love.

bit deep, but this video says it better than i do.

if anybody does read this anymore, watch it and really listen :)

...and a little update on what i've been up do since the turn of the new year?

- handed in and completed my last ever "semester 1" work at university.

- went and met the old love interest for a few drinks

- caught up and had lots of revision coffees with chloe

- came back home and i'm currently working my way through a mountain of chocolate

- also currently working lots of shifts and getting back into the black before the start of my last ever term at university (waaah?!)

Bx

Happy New Year!!

Just back from an AMAZING new years weekend with my two BB girls in Newcastle! Literally had so much fun and was an outstanding way to bring in the new year. I'll do a cheeky blog post about that laters, but for now I need to post up my annual tradition of new years resolution and review of the year blog posts.

Here goes my resolutions post :)

Last years resolutions were:

"1. i will spend more time updating this blog and not completely disown it now that i have to work on my design ones."

Completely haven't kept to this one. In 2011 i've posted a third of what I used to post. This makes me so sad and it's definitely something i'm changing next year! The summer had such an effect on it, i really just completely lost the desire to tell anyone anything about what I was doing and what a mess i was.

2. i will join the uni gym properly, rather just wasting away my loan on pool fee's.

Again, massive fail. Wasted quite a bit on pool fee's but mid term i always start going less and i think i would have wasted far much more money if i had got a proper membership. Next year i'm just gonna try and go more and definitely get fit.

3. i will stop the ridiculous becca whine! (or reduce it! haha, it is my normal tone of voice..)

4. i will stop mentioning the usual becca drunken whine. even i don't care anymore.

...Not doing very well at any of these really am i?! Massively not improved this at all. Altho what i used to whine about last year is compleeetely over. Couldn't care less anymore, i've grown up and moved completely on ;)

5. i will live up these next 6 months of uni, but remember to work hard before deadlines kick in, to avoid the absolute panic breakdown!

I think whilst i was writing these resolutions last year i must have been panicking that it was my last 6 months of uni with all the people i loved before going on placement year. The way things have happened i've found myself still at uni with these amazing people and altho still have the odd breakdown about work, i am working hard.

6. i will have fun and stop being so serious about guys.. we're only young, single and freeee once in our lives, these are meant to be the best years ;)

Definitely definitely kept this one. My attitude about guys completely changed this year and it's been a dramatic but hilarious and fun year! I've mainly got my bb girls to thank for this change, i love you both and your mentalities over guys and having fun ;)

7. i will stop losing things on nights out and will hold onto my phone this year!

Woo-hoo! Also kept this one. The only thing i think i've actually lost this year is my denim jacket...waahh RIP "do you like my new jacket?!" ...but genuinely so proud of myself that i've held onto my phone! ...let's not jinx it tho.

8. i will take lots more pictures of lots more nights out with the leicester gang, the 62 gang, the graphics gang and all the other stunners i have such a laugh with. bring on plenty more amazing memories and amazing nights!

I would say i've definitely done this too. I've taken loads of pictures this year and i've had loads of great memories and nights out.

Sooo, a mixed result haha, some massive fails and some major successes! Here's what I hope to keep to next year:

1. Get fit. (and eat less) I feel so much better when i make an effort with what i'm eating and after i've exercised, so i'm gonna try and keep this up next year, especially whilst i'm busy too...not just when theres nothing else to do!

2. Get the graduate job and career that i've worked really hard for. I need to not let anything hold me back and just go for it. And hopefully stay in Leeds so that i can have lots of reunions with the graphics guys. It would be great to still be around to see them all graduate next year.

3. Whine less. This is a huggeee push for me this year. I've got this horrible negative attitude that it seems everyone kind of jokily talks about but i feel like its a horrible thing to be associated with. I need to really make and effort to be more positive (esp when drunk!!)

4. Keep in touch with everyone from uni, after they all graduate and leave. It's gonna be a biggg year and such a sad thing to do to say goodbye to everyone, but i really want to stay in touch with all the amazing people i've met over the 3 years at uni. They've become like family, especially chlo who has become like a sister i never had! I don't know what i'd do if i lost in touch with all of you, it would be such a shame.

5. Live it up. Again! Although it's gonna be such a dramatic and serious year, i will enjoy my last year of university and the start of my leap into the real world and just enjoy the next part of my adventures! I need to worry less, get on with it and be excited about what the future will hold.

6. I've had fun, but a nice serious-er boyfriend or relationship would be lovely. haha!

So thats my resolutions for 2012. Hopefully i'll read them back next year and be pretty happy that i've kept to all of them. I'm excited for this year, it's scary thinking about whats coming up, but i have a cheeky hunch it's gonna be a good one :) i'll round up 2011 in the next blog post!

Lots of new year love

Bx